(That’s Little Lacey at DisneyLand. I’m trying to find Mickey… I really wanted his autograph )
This afternoon Jessica and I were walking our dog and came across a playground. I asked her if we could stop and look at the kids playing on the swings They were havin a JOLLY old time, sooo jolly it got me thinking…
When I first moved to New York I wasn’t sure what I was going to be when I grew-up :) I worked in television but it just didn’t feel right, ya know? I wanted to have a career that I was passionate about, something I LOVED to do. I saw the Top Executives at CBS Sports on a regular, they looked MISERABLE… I thought to myself - “That’s what I’m working towards… miserableness?” YUCK. I seriously considered quitting and getting the hell outta dodge on several occasions… But something was keeping me there?
I did some major soul searching during that time. I came to the realization that I was pretty depressed in my life. The thought of leaving CBS Sports, a career that was supposedly “glamorous,” forced me to ask myself some Hard-Core questions…
How did you get this way? Why did you get this way? Why aren’t you happy?
I remember something really POWERFUL that changed my life that year. During that time of MISERABLENESS I went home for Christmas. One evening I found myself upstairs in the family den looking through childhood photo albums. I studied myself in those albums… I was sooo happy doing my own thing back then. I asked the Little Lacey pictures why are you sooo happy…? What happened to me? What happened to us?
And I got the answer from my little self. She looked at me and said – “You stopped doing what you love, you tried to fit in, you stopped having fun, you grew up.”
When I went back to New York I immediately quit my job at CBS Sports and decided to go full-time as a Personal Trainer/Fitness Instructor at Equinox. I was tired of doing what I was suppose to do and I wanted to do what my heart and my little self told me I must do.
I remember several years later looking in the mirror and seeing Little Lacey in my adult eyes… I thanked her for coming back and I promised her that I would never try to grow-up again… :)